I'M BACKKKKK!

Hey guys!

So yeah I abandoned my blog for a few months...I'M SORRY!

I don't really have an excuse for not using it I just haven't lol!

So first off I wanna say Happy New Year! Happy 2013! And I hope that everyone has had a happy and safe new year!

A lot of things have happened the past couple weeks that made me evaluate my life and what I want to do in college. I will explain a little bit in my upcoming haul (should be up next week, I'm recording this weekend!) but mainly I will say that I've had a few panic attacks from my anxiety and made a life choice to stop being unhappy.

Part of my unhappiness has been me following in other guru's footsteps and trying to be them, mainly. When I realized I need to be myself. I love makeup and hair and nails and anything beauty, as well as you guys cause you watch and subscribe and are interested in what I have to say and I've never really had that. I am extremely appreciative in where I am as a 'beginner guru'? I guess you can call it that, and I'm extremely thankful and happy to have the ones that want to watch me and love me and support me with me! <3

I WOULD BE NO WHERE WITHOUT ALL OF YOU! <3

But I realized like I said I need to be my own person in the beauty community not just follow the crowd. Which also goes along with school. You guys know that I have been trying to go to school for my associates in early childhood education. HOWEVER, I recently realized after this semester's end that maybe that's not what I want to do with my life. I want to do something more. I love kids but maybe it's not my absolute passion, if you guys understand what I mean. It's like I'm just settling. SO as a result of that I didn't register this semester for school because I want to take some time out to figure out what I really want to do with my life. I know I did this before after Medical Assisting was a FAIL. In some way I do feel like a failure, but in another I feel like its not what I want. I sincerely want to figure it out and think about it. Before YouTube I would say yeah I'll settle for whatever. But now that I make videos and I watch videos and I get feedback from you guys my priorities career wise have changed.

I want to be more in the beauty field and help people. I was going to make this announcement on my video this week but.....I guess I can spill a little bit of the beans now. I'm considering beauty school for next fall. I really am. It seems coinsides with what I do now, make videos and help people (as far as I know lol!) It's not set in stone, but so far this looks like the route I may want to turn to. As for my previous school, I will have a loan to pay back so if my videos seem even more off the next few months it maybe because I need to get a job once again to pay it off. But overrall I think that this might be the new path in my life and I'm excited to see where it takes me!

I love all of my subbies and everyone who has supported me on youtube and in my life, I don't know what I would do without you! THANK YOU SO MUCH! <3

xoxo,
Sam<3